09-18-12| 4:40 am

And when it hits me, what's hurting him so badly, I want to recoil from the impact. When his heart is in the right place but he's so badly, badly hurt that there is a labrinyth around it.

I see it, I recognize it, I feel it too. We are both lost souls and we are opposites. But something always told me that there's more beyond those luminescent green eyes. Nearly a year later I'm farther but I've barely scratched the surface. I don't know. I don't know if I'll eventually learn the lessons staring me in the face. I don't know.

I keep trying. I have no excuse not to be strong.