08-28-07| 2:25 am

'Did you cry?' he asked me. 'No,' I said. 'I let myself be sad but there were no tears.' This was the truth.

You can't hurt me, not visibly. This is at once the problem and the solution. You can gain no advantage but at times I am stranded with nothing but pain.

I am not dependent, not demanding. Unconvential and perhaps, confusing. But finally, most importantly, I am self-respecting. Self-loving. I am this girl, and this girl deserves more.

Maybe I will get it. Maybe not, but either way is okay. It's the experience that counts.