04-30-07| 2:11 am

My friend is sad. She takes anti-depressants. Pills never occurred to me, I was too busy with other substances.

For her, I just reread a year of depression. I was so angry! Heart breakingly angry and I was so hurt. It was a resounding chant. 'You hurt me, you hurt me' and I could never move on because I was so empty! destroyed.

It took a year to fill empty places but I filled them with myself and with love and with gratitude until here we are feeling whole. I hope she can do it too.