12-21-06| 12:20 am

He said, You'll never get the apology you're waiting for. Girl, you have everything you need.

and I was crying, not about the shirt, but crying because I don't think I have everything. I think I am missing a vital piece and there is a hole in me.

What I am doing is breaking myself. I was crying because it goes against my nature to be unhappy every day and yet--I am unhappy. Dichotomy--heartbreak.

Happy Holidays.