11-25-06| 12:13 am

For the last few years. Indeed, it has been years! I want to print all of this, highlight, revise. My life, my youth, whatever there was of it.

For the last few years. On and off, thankful for the same things. This year, all of that, yes. Two things without which I would not have lasted. When I think about throwing in the towel, two thoughts run through my head and I fight. I have been fighting.

This year I left. Had the kind of holiday I didn't know I could have. No cell phone, no emails. Maybe decided I am going to fix the weak areas that I've been too scared to worry about. Maybe I'm just a little stronger than when I left.