09-05-06| 2:08 pm


Avalanche, start inside of me.

This morning- roll out of bed, let everyone see how broken down I am. Autonomous, going through the motions; this from the girl who never slowed down, never waned. It is not what they are used to.

Fine until a phone call. I have to go, I said, in the coldest voice I could find. I hung up.
I am not smoking. I am not drinking. I am exercising. drinking water. eating right. And I am lower than low. So how do I fix it now. How do I fix it now?