03-29-06| 10:38 pm

"He seems pretty cool." that is what the boy said to me. "Always in a good mood."

I could not explain because no one can ever know. It is our charm and our curse, playing pretend so well. People ask me if I've ever been sad because in public, all can do is look enthusiastic, energetic, optimistic. Maybe that's where the confusion comes from. Outside, inside, they don't match up.

But no one ever knows.