02-03-06| 1:44 am

i have known about you for a long time. this now is disgusting and reinforcing; I will never get so lost.

friends and coworkers and now you. i worried about this a decade ago and never stopped but now i am. you are not a person anymore, you are an addict. you are not family anymore, YOU ARE AN ADDICT. no sympathy and no support; this is not my fault and it is not my problem. I AM NOT YOU AND YOU ARE NOT STRONG.

hurting you with this doesn't matter you don't exist and I will mourn for you if I can remember any reason why.