01-20-06| 12:54 pm

I was stupid. The life I wanted to lead is now the life I'm living and I didn't expect consequence, I did not forsee complications.

I did not have feelings for you. I wanted to push you until we did something you might regret and I might congratulate myself on.

But this was different entirely. Think what you will but I am not a slut, I am not a whore. 1 or 100, the number does not matter. Sex means nothing, I told you, and thus condemned myself.

I was being careful, restraining myself, couldn't look bad in your eyes but now your eyes are not the ones I care about and I am not going to hold back. Judge me, you always do, but I will have no regrets.