01-05-06| 2:16 am

I have had a new best friend. She is leaving soon.

DrinkDrinkdrinkdrinkdrinkdrink. This, that, don't stop.

I am seeing what my life would be like without responsibilities, without dedications. Also, seeing why she has an eating disorder, a psychiatrist, and a wealth of insecurities.

I'm going into mourning when she leaves, I am telling people. But I am also going to rediscover how it feels to be in control of myself.