08-13-05| 8:50 pm

Let's talk about leaving: I don't have to do it again. I counted months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, seconds, until I was sobbing in my car because I made the wrong decision. There were a lot of "last time"s in my head, mostly "this is the last time I'll ever be so happy."

Let's talk about staying: it wasn't easy returning here. Cold estrangement is uncomfortable. I never thought people would try so hard to make me unhappy.

This is only for me. It is right and it is perfect: I am happy.