12-27-04| 10:49 pm

Thoughts have been rolling around in my mind. Everything is unsettlingly right, every day, every minute. I knew what I had to do and I did it.

I had resigned myself to a week of not hearing from you. Too perfect, that's what it would have been if you had needed my voice as I am beginning to need yours. There was never this closeness, never this ache. I am changing before my own eyes.

Life is happening with a sudden intensity. As I was getting ready for bed, flashes of familiarity running through my brain, my phone rang.