12-17-04| 9:45 pm

Things are moving quickly. She tells me about him (she voices my thoughts) and I am afraid to meet her eyes because in the back of our minds, we both know what I am doing to you.
I am worried about you. You are involuntarily lost without me, I left you with nothing and I knew it. Now I am back and she and I are talking about him, talking like you never existed and I never loved you so much that I would have sacrificed everything for you.