11-20-04| 11:54 pm

Is that it then, problem solved, question answered?

I love you but I'm leaving, I love you but I'm leaving--remember this mantra? Surrounded by people saying move on, move on; jaded people--did they move on?

I prayed and prayed to win the lottery (mega millions)but the tickets did not have that magic combination and our future was once again uncertain.

"I keep looking back," I say, and "move on, move on," hits my ears. If this is moving on, let's freeze time. I'm sick of the memories, they do nothing! You think and think and think and nothing!

I am not moving on. I am moving back. It's possible that this is the answer.