09-19-04| 1:53 am

I am a mess right now. Having what I had three weeks ago would make this unimaginably better: I worked nine years at creating a life I loved and bam! leave it behind and wish and wish you could have stayed.

The worst thing about mistakes is admitting you've made one--I don't know this for sure but I am already imagining the I-told-you-so's.