09-15-04| 12:10 am

I can't look at you without crying. I made a choice: I won't look at you anymore.

Not fair to you, maybe, but what am I supposed to do? I can't let my life be ruined so I am shutting you out, I am not thinking of you, I will not look at you. You are the source of my instability, this can't go on.

So many things are going right, is it a sign?