07-07-04| 11:06 pm

Oh, Despair, here is something I cannot fight.

Like quicksand; my struggles only leave me sinking faster and I can tell you the exact date of my last breath. I love you, I love you, I love you, but our fate was set and I can't work miracles--who can stop the sun from rising? I've lived in the moment, I've lived in every moment of the last two years but there's very few moments left and I'm afraid to live in the one where I leave you.

I am only one girl and I am only so strong; I fear you will never understand.