05-30-04| 11:21 pm

We offer up trivialities, but I will show you my fatal flaw; my biggest fear.

Treat me with indifference and you will see. I do not cling, I do not beg; I exit and I act as though my world never revolved around you. If I was wrong, explain yourself to my back as I walk away from anything we may have had.

I am telling you that I have to matter and that I haven't yet; why should I offer up my trust only to have it diminished when I answer every phone call thinking of you, when I spend weekends at home thinking of you, when I leave my house thinking of you? I thought something was different here, I always think something is different.

And so there is my flaw: if only you knew how much you were hurting me right now.