04-12-04| 10:12 pm

God God God God God I never want to see a bottle of alcohol again! I promise to shudder every time I pass a liquor store, I promise to never do what you've done, I promise to never be you. God, I promise.

Oh friends, you will never see me fully intoxicated, you will never drive me home and drop my car off in the morning, you will never hear me yelling obscenities as I stumble my way up the stairs.

I will never hate myself enough to lose control.