2003-10-20| 7:22 p.m.

When people ask, I tell them that I don't really know. I tell them that while things aren't great, they aren't bad because I'm smart enough to distance myself from that situation.

Psychologically, last year was the lowest point of my life. I look back and don't even remember how so few people knew anything was wrong when I was so depressed, in such a bad place mentally. And I know that I won't sink that low again because I don't have it in me to let anything matter that much anymore.

The people who held me up, helped me through are the ones I don't want to leave. Those people are my family.