2003-09-03| 4:58 p.m.

If there is one thing I recognize from reading previous entries, it is that my biggest flaw lies in being unable to cope with change. I wanted my 6th grade best friendship to always stay the same, I wanted my other friends to stay the same, I wanted situations to stay the same, life to stay the same.

Is that such a horrible thing to ask? That the people I love never leave me behind, that my life doesn't go hurtling out of control in the blink of an eye? Because I've asked and asked and it's never helped.