2003-08-12| 12:35 a.m.

TheCity's back, after a week that went pretty much as planned.

I thought about what I said, how I wasn't "that girl," how I wanted to slip through the cracks.

I'm scared of what I want a clean slate for. To become the life I've been living on the side for the last six months? Maybe then I wouldn't remember that I don't even know who I am anymore.

Maybe that's why I won't be leaving TheCity. Can't forget all of this, can't forget myself like I want to. Not going to let it happen.