2003-07-06| 10:27 p.m.

I feel like things are caving in all over, closing down on this impossible dream that I could make things work out. It lasted a month, that's what it did, but suddenly it's next month and you're screaming the same old thing and thinking the same old thing and freaking out. It's like every time I get to the edge I'm just a little bit closer, and one of these days I'm just going to go right over.

Maybe I should forget all of those great plans I had. Maybe I should stop convincing myself that everything's okay because when I do that things start to fall apart.