2003-02-17| 7:42 p.m.

The thing is, I'm freaking out because maybe you're the quiet one who puts all her energy into looking good and being hip and maybe I'm the one who's out there riding until 11pm each night, who blows off friends because I want to brush my horse, who maybe only wears hoodies now because she's a little self conscious and a little poor because i just dropped $400 on a bridle,even though maybe I throw myself out there and you'd be surprised I guess at how many people don't like me, because maybe we were always equal but now it's catching up with me and i'm a little freaking out.