TheCity: return trip

My entire life
03-12-24 - Tired
11-15-23 - And now I have that again
05-16-23 - I said I would never take care of you and I meant it
02-01-23 - SORRY MOMMY
01-03-23 - Me
01-03-23 - Me
12-26-22 - Christmas year 22?
10-11-22 - I miss you
03-11-22 - Just me
01-29-22 - Me
12-24-21 - Christmas is always like this
12-13-21 - Anxiety
10-16-21 - tougher than
10-07-21 - I did it
09-25-21 - grandma ina
09-22-21 - my grandma
09-20-21 - grandma ina
03-17-21 - because of dakota
03-15-21 - dakota
12-07-20 - 2020
06-15-20 - cant/wont
05-08-20 - grandma ina
02-28-20 - dakota
02-09-20 - so there
11-10-19 - oleg
09-03-19 - cervical laser
06-03-19 - i’m normal now
03-27-19 - and i couldn’t
03-10-19 - new digs
01-21-19 - it’s good now
12-24-18 - progress
10-20-18 - healthy
09-24-18 - brmthd
08-23-18 - one day
08-19-18 - oleg
07-22-18 - you wouldn’t touch me
07-07-18 - oleg
07-05-18 - ok
06-17-18 - so here you go
06-14-18 - why
06-09-18 - so
05-02-18 - job opportunity
04-30-18 - :(
04-30-18 - facetime straub
04-19-18 - sad shit
04-13-18 - i don't know
04-11-18 - nope
04-09-18 - my life, my heart, my job
04-06-18 - sansa
04-04-18 - even if
04-01-18 - and that was it.
04-01-18 - i think it will be okay
03-28-18 - you might be leaving me
03-19-18 - i need a dog
03-19-18 - :(
03-18-18 - sansa
03-18-18 - einer
03-17-18 - sad sometimes
03-03-18 - sadder
03-03-18 - sad
02-13-18 - hmph
02-04-18 - the broken futon
01-25-18 - not really
12-30-17 - yeah
11-24-17 - me
11-22-17 - dissociation
11-12-17 - lonely
11-11-17 - sansa
11-04-17 - it'll never happen
10-08-17 - woke up crying
08-20-17 - no friends
08-03-17 - dakota
06-29-17 - i made a mixtape for u
04-23-17 - things i don't know
04-23-17 - as we grow
04-20-17 - 30
04-09-17 - friends
12-16-16 - einer
12-01-16 - nobody loved me enough
11-27-16 - straub
11-18-16 - einer
07-26-16 - about being an adult
07-22-16 - how
07-03-16 - :(
06-07-16 - happy home
05-31-16 - lies
05-31-16 - shame
04-24-16 - coping
02-11-16 - dakota
01-24-16 - problems
01-11-16 - dad
11-22-15 - time
11-12-15 - quiet
09-24-15 - parents
09-07-15 - sad
09-06-15 - addiction
09-06-15 - addiction
08-17-15 - post drugs
07-15-15 - work
05-25-15 - emotionally unavailable
02-28-15 - simple things
01-01-15 - holidays
12-02-14 - I don't know which one to pickup
11-27-14 - thanksgiving
11-23-14 - munoz
10-06-14 - new man
09-17-14 - my grandma
09-13-14 - new job
09-13-14 - new job
09-05-14 - my grandmother
08-28-14 - so listen
08-20-14 - New York friends
07-29-14 - munoz
07-16-14 - pete
07-12-14 - year too late
06-05-14 - promise
06-01-14 - straub
04-10-14 - crying
04-10-14 - crying
04-04-14 - Linda
04-04-14 - Linda
04-02-14 - fiction
03-11-14 - sad
02-14-14 - -
02-10-14 - enough
01-26-14 - nyc
01-26-14 - nyc
01-08-14 - are you drinking
12-29-13 - hostess
12-07-13 - shimmers
12-07-13 - shimmers
11-09-13 - her
10-16-13 - moments
10-16-13 - invisible friend
09-20-13 - snow crash
09-17-13 - the cat
09-11-13 - him revised
09-08-13 - club IMPORTANT
09-03-13 - shorter
08-23-13 - try to deny it
08-18-13 - him
07-29-13 - him again
07-25-13 - the problem
07-20-13 - darkness
07-10-13 - the great gatsby
06-26-13 - like my father
06-26-13 - she means everything to me
06-22-13 - disassociation
06-16-13 - dad
05-29-13 - BEA
05-24-13 - Is all
05-18-13 - Wheelchair
05-17-13 - Him
05-11-13 - Rebecca
05-04-13 - The moment.
04-27-13 - Pete
04-25-13 - the artist
04-25-13 - Like ivory
04-23-13 - Ben
04-16-13 - Special
04-11-13 - for the memoir
04-09-13 - I hide it better
04-08-13 - Do not be dishonest
04-06-13 - I'm good at it though
04-01-13 - I was asked out.
03-28-13 - The truth though
03-18-13 - I did the right thing
03-17-13 - I never say them
03-12-13 - New chapters
03-12-13 - I am doing the right thing
03-03-13 - 76 oneill court.
02-14-13 - Oblivion
02-02-13 - Her face
01-21-13 - To my maternal grandmother on the eve of her death
01-09-13 - Cause if you're scared you're not alone
01-06-13 - Alcoholic
12-20-12 - Fear
12-06-12 - Company shares
11-23-12 - Another year
11-20-12 - Same old shit.
11-03-12 - Moments
10-26-12 - Love her enough
10-26-12 - Love her enough
09-30-12 - About other ppl
09-27-12 - Not the dream
09-21-12 - Late night hallucinations.
09-18-12 - hard looks
09-10-12 - sadly
08-30-12 - unique
08-18-12 - Everything.
08-15-12 - speechless
08-05-12 - Why
07-31-12 - I always will
07-30-12 - Happy
07-12-12 - Pride
07-01-12 - more nonfiction
07-01-12 - Nonfiction
06-17-12 - Love me enough
06-14-12 - Peter
06-11-12 - ms.grober
06-06-12 - Riptide
05-27-12 - The future
05-24-12 - Big girl job
05-16-12 - To be continued
05-14-12 - Always
04-29-12 - Take it from there
04-13-12 - Whoops
04-10-12 - All for a man I thought or think I wanted
03-29-12 - -
03-27-12 - Pete
03-07-12 - Maybe
03-05-12 - 25
02-09-12 - -
09-23-11 - alison
09-19-11 - so fucking deal with em
07-24-11 - drug addiction
05-27-11 - I'm trying to tackle things
05-01-11 - love triangle
04-28-11 - and im sad.
04-28-11 - and im sad.
03-31-11 - lmfao
01-29-11 - californication
01-29-11 - duh
01-04-11 - -
11-03-10 - got it
10-27-10 - and so
09-20-10 - famous
09-09-10 - and now i have it
08-15-10 - thats why
06-23-10 - i hate it
06-21-10 - drugs!
06-14-10 - ps i had sex with straub
06-11-10 - cant do it justice
06-08-10 - ruined everything
06-07-10 - but whatever
04-26-10 - because it has to
04-16-10 - and i got diamond earrings.
03-03-10 - crippling fear.
02-20-10 - its sort of like losing a safety net.
02-15-10 - thoughts
02-01-10 - i was a kid.
01-21-10 - currently
01-15-10 - but I have a stuffy nose.
12-28-09 - friution
11-28-09 - this year
11-20-09 - and eat brownies
11-17-09 - so happy anniversary.
11-08-09 - it was a good run.
Halloween - and more i hope.
10-27-09 - lucky anyway.
10-09-09 - dont read chick lit.
09-21-09 - but what do we do?
09-21-09 - but what do we do?
09-17-09 - i miss him.
labor day - labor day.
09-07-09 - even if I hated it I would love it.
09-07-09 - everyone
09-03-09 - mom dreams
Sept. 5,2009 - labor day
Sept. 5,2009 - labor day
August 27 2009 - a g s
08-22-09 - we will see
08-19-09 - in some way.
August 11 2009 - its not easy.
- thats all
07-28-09 - loversss
07-24-09 - straub
07-19-09 - -
07-14-09 - i cant
07-10-09 - and will continue to do so.
07-06-09 - I can remember it right now.
07-04-09 - its summer anyway
06-27-09 - i knew I would one day.
06-23-09 - what comes next.
06-19-09 - almost perfect, but not quite.
06-15-09 - we went out to dinner.
06-08-09 - right?
06-02-09 - thats all
05-23-09 - and its starting now!
05-22-09 - sorry mom.
05-19-09 - it was great.
04-28-09 - or maybe it doesn't
04-10-09 - dear family,
04-01-09 - had to.
03-25-09 - please.
03-21-09 - so we'll see in two weeks.
03-18-09 - and got nothing.
03-12-09 - its not the same love.
02-15-09 - vday.
02-12-09 - because I loved you so much.
02-11-09 - but it could happen at any time.
02-09-09 - it was.
02-01-09 - does it?
02-01-09 - by the way, I'm high.
01-19-09 - and it was my dad.
01-16-09 - everything else
01-01-09 - -
12-29-08 - love (haven't I written this before?)
12-23-08 - family?
12-18-08 - so i got my car inspected.
12-09-08 - dakota
12-02-08 - i guess.
11-21-08 - not yet anyway.
11-16-08 - too full.
11-09-08 - this isn't about my ex-boyfriend.
11-08-08 - i anticipate that we will once again have sex.
11-02-08 - but we'll be okay.
10-30-08 - an ode to my first love.
10-27-08 - 8 letters
10-17-08 - and I do.
10-09-08 - enough?
09-26-08 - all over the place
09-17-08 - i wanted to go apple picking.
09-05-08 - grief.
09-01-08 - of loving and being loved.
08-25-08 - I met Al's family today
08-13-08 - it came back.
08-09-08 - reasons why
07-29-08 - I'll say it soon.
07-28-08 - and im drunk.
07-26-08 - shitshow friday.
07-24-08 - al and stephanie in the morning.
07-22-08 - in other news..
07-21-08 - like selling kota.
07-17-08 - love.
07-10-08 - like at the barn
07-05-08 - jeff?
07-02-08 - much ado about al.
07-01-08 - so i called al
06-27-08 - and i am holding the strings.
06-25-08 - and that will be good.
06-17-08 - rules of summer
06-11-08 - but i did it.
06-08-08 - remember that?
06-04-08 - so thats better.
06-03-08 - cheating.
06-02-08 - oh boy.
05-31-08 - and that's the truth.
05-27-08 - but what about the state of things?
05-26-08 - lovin youuuu
05-20-08 - secrets,
05-13-08 - i wrote this entry 4 times!
05-11-08 - kevin and oh ps i KISSED SANTIAGO
05-10-08 - up in the air, always.
04-14-08 - but im not sure what,
04-12-08 - i hope you cant sleep.
04-08-08 - even though right now i just want to sleep.
03-30-08 - what if i let myself love you?
03-23-08 - al
03-22-08 - whirlwind.
03-19-08 - i wont fear love.
03-16-08 - some things.
03-07-08 - and sleeping with brazilians.
03-04-08 - rain.
03-02-08 - getting asked out
02-21-08 - and now I'm single.
02-10-08 - everyone's name but mine.
02-09-08 - by al
02-04-08 - adultation.
01-21-08 - -
01-18-08 - books make me sad too.
01-10-08 - for tonight.
01-05-08 - "this isnt working."
01-04-08 - fake boyfriend
12-27-07 - and I like it.
12-23-07 - christmas.
12-16-07 - -
12-13-07 - this has to be the last time.
12-12-07 - not today, i'm tired.
12-10-07 - until we crash?
12-01-07 - but I'm not scared for me.
11-18-07 - philly 1/2
11-11-07 - love
10-22-07 - best run
10-15-07 - no more!
10-11-07 - it's all been enough.
10-08-07 - weight.
09-24-07 - Its just sex, isn't it? Isn't it.
09-11-07 - -
09-07-07 - short story part 2.
09-07-07 - short story.
08-31-07 - so i'll be single.
08-28-07 - a boyfriend?
08-21-07 - sinking into the ocean.
08-16-07 - espanol
08-05-07 - enrollment.
07-22-07 - just some things.
07-12-07 - little old man
07-02-07 - life
06-30-07 - -
06-27-07 - dakota.
06-22-07 - summer!
06-21-07 - things in my brain.
06-16-07 - life
06-14-07 - these don't relate though.
06-11-07 - there was a crack in the ice and I am stupid.
06-08-07 - feelings
06-06-07 - mirrors.
06-01-07 - I didn't sign up for this.
05-30-07 - living here was better before
05-25-07 - not now, not ever.
05-16-07 - trip to grandmas,
05-14-07 - treehouse.
05-10-07 - when I was 20 in the spring.
05-08-07 - positive thoughts!
05-07-07 - finally!
05-01-07 - but i have no vested interest in this anyway, christina.
04-30-07 - gosh.
04-27-07 - I hope christina is okay.
04-26-07 - some guy who knew my mom.
04-22-07 - it was beautiful!
04-19-07 - coming of age.
04-09-07 - great sex!
04-04-07 - i love dakota that much.
04-04-07 - i love dakota that much.
03-30-07 - christina's mental state.
03-25-07 - so many papers!
03-22-07 - smart righteous.
03-17-07 - beautiful country.
03-11-07 - before jamaica kind of sucks
03-06-07 - But now everything feels limitless again.
03-01-07 - twenty, 2007.
02-25-07 - memoir
02-24-07 - thanks bartender.
02-18-07 - this isnt gonna make sense--collin
02-17-07 - unlocked and living it
02-11-07 - and i didnt have a bad trip
02-08-07 - we'll see in a year. 20!
01-30-07 - young and alive.
01-26-07 - i had one great date and I can die happy now?
01-25-07 - lets hope that doesnt change
01-23-07 - TJ
01-23-07 - jignasa.
01-14-07 - acceptance.
01-05-07 - christina
01-03-07 - after canada? before texas.
01-01-07 - 2007
12-26-06 - less sorrow
12-21-06 - I need a shirt for work, too.
12-18-06 - russ
12-10-06 - before this
12-06-06 - sleep.
12-05-06 - anxiety poem
12-05-06 - i didn't even recognize you.
11-28-06 - how to live life.
11-25-06 - turkey
11-18-06 - healing
11-17-06 - scared
11-12-06 - I'm scared. I want to fall in love.
11-05-06 - ghost girls
11-02-06 - cuz of men.
11-01-06 - thank you!
10-30-06 - or i will be broke!!
10-26-06 - where?
10-24-06 - all i did was go to the movies.
10-21-06 - but i cant!
10-19-06 - and not gross.
10-17-06 - memories
10-12-06 - and my grandma comes tonight!
10-10-06 - not terry though.
10-09-06 - why, high
10-08-06 - in a thing called love
10-07-06 - I'm better than that girl.
10-05-06 - highhhhhhh
09-28-06 - strong!
09-26-06 - remember sophomore year
09-26-06 - real me
09-21-06 - September.
09-17-06 - Saugerties
09-07-06 - Jason
09-05-06 - last.
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-05-06 - back entries
09-03-06 - thecityentry.doc
08-22-06 - soon.
07-09-06 - self pity.
07-08-06 - no mas spencer
07-02-06 - family as always
07-01-06 - nevermind that then.
06-25-06 - a real crush.
06-25-06 - signs of progress but this is kind of about TJ
06-18-06 - broken.
06-15-06 - what happened to me?
05-14-06 - movie?
05-07-06 - love.
05-07-06 - horse show
05-01-06 - talkin wildddddd
04-28-06 - so young so hustlinnnn
04-20-06 - richa
04-18-06 - i remember that but it was so long ago?
04-15-06 - oh so high!
04-11-06 - mountain top
04-08-06 - no more driving home wasted
04-04-06 - this feels like a TV show.
03-31-06 - or just PMSing.
03-29-06 - good dad?
03-26-06 - extra friendly, I say
03-25-06 - and i am a catty bitch. TAKE THAT APRIL.
03-22-06 - like mariah carey
03-21-06 - -
03-18-06 - I will ignore being stood up tonight!
03-15-06 - i dont really know what to do.
03-11-06 - forty seven dollars.
03-10-06 - i love every second of it.
03-08-06 - i consider it lucky indeed
03-06-06 - i cant explain it right.
03-04-06 - ERIC
02-21-06 - like ralph green
02-18-06 - bryan. bridget.
02-09-06 - it was an important year.
02-06-06 - getting better.
02-04-06 - nevermind.
02-04-06 - too strong for too long
02-03-06 - but right now i cant
01-24-06 - but i better go to class
01-21-06 - ugh
01-20-06 - more more
01-17-06 - and slut isnt so bad now
01-15-06 - ice cream books soundtracks and love?
01-06-06 - but really i could say a lot more!
01-05-06 - kate
01-01-06 - partying
12-25-05 - 3 years running
12-24-05 - and youre a shitty best friend right now.
12-22-05 - I probably do need therapy though.
12-18-05 - three
12-16-05 - i think i'm over it
12-14-05 - how could it have been me?
12-10-05 - alex
12-04-05 - and everyone else
11-26-05 - this is a stupid entry.
11-25-05 - text induced love
11-15-05 - six point 2 3 4 or 5
11-09-05 - oh boys
11-04-05 - sexxx
11-02-05 - sadness
10-30-05 - cool gotta go!
10-23-05 - home
10-09-05 - hmmm
10-04-05 - but i wish them the best of luck.
09-30-05 - copycat
09-25-05 - glad?
09-11-05 - pam and michael
08-26-05 - I blame you for everything.
08-24-05 - -
08-20-05 - exhausted.
08-17-05 - boys.
08-13-05 - -
07-31-05 - all i wanted was a meal.
07-31-05 - -
07-08-05 - do what you love.
06-26-05 - better to not eat anyway.
06-16-05 - family
06-06-05 - dysfunction
06-05-05 - gone
05-27-05 - running
05-19-05 - (maybe i want him more)
05-08-05 - 72 hours
04-25-05 - happy 19th birthday shaynaaa
04-17-05 - Only if it's worthwhile, i told him.
04-12-05 - I wonder what techers thought when they told me to stop reading in class.
04-02-05 - but now neither of us will.
03-14-05 - I dont know anyway
03-09-05 - 00
03-07-05 - financial decisions=dakota
03-02-05 - physical fitness
02-20-05 - quick description.
02-16-05 - effin sale.
02-12-05 - that's why there's FMF.
02-08-05 - big TB jumper.
02-04-05 - I love you back, I said.
02-02-05 - goddamn it.
01-29-05 - horses.
01-29-05 - i dont know, i have no feelings.
01-27-05 - fucking andy.
01-22-05 - But the snow is postponing it
01-16-05 - nothing is going to be the same!
01-15-05 - it's just really hard.
01-09-05 - they never understood.
01-09-05 - but it's only 8 days.
12-27-04 - life, book, phone call
12-24-04 - MerryChristmasLoveTheCity
12-22-04 - 3'6"
12-21-04 - stupid job.
12-19-04 - It was a nice thought
12-17-04 - but i am excited?
12-16-04 - I dont even mind the touching anymore
12-15-04 - Or take on a nap.
12-04-04 - do i just not like sex?
12-03-04 - or just turn in early.
12-02-04 - lets start over
11-25-04 - If love is surrender
11-20-04 - fall 05.
11-16-04 - i want to be an eq girl.
11-15-04 - radiation.
11-04-04 - we'd have excellent sex.
11-03-04 - i was very young then
10-27-04 - LIKE MY HAPPINESS
10-18-04 - like a transfer
10-16-04 - god i miss you so much
10-12-04 - passive agressive bullshit
10-09-04 - go to the gym tomorrow i am a little messed up.
09-30-04 - suck it!
09-24-04 - lonely here
09-19-04 - Is this even how I feel
09-19-04 - this really sucks right now.
09-16-04 - it was good prose.
09-15-04 - 3 for 3?
09-09-04 - been awhile?
09-05-04 - not working.
09-01-04 - otherwise everything's great,
08-28-04 - -
08-26-04 - and now we're done
08-21-04 - I'll see you every other weekend.
08-15-04 - next thursday.
08-07-04 - sue's mood swings
08-04-04 - ugly and dying!
07-31-04 - could have but theres only 2 more weeks.
07-15-04 - i am so sore.
07-09-04 - nana
07-07-04 - August 30
07-05-04 - youre at the beach!
06-27-04 - but now I've remembered (no leg)
06-22-04 - should have been carl
06-14-04 - papa
06-07-04 - maybe my haircut will help
05-30-04 - because i won't call you first anymore.
05-24-04 - thats just them.
05-21-04 - jason
05-20-04 - they'll miss me.
05-12-04 - hard though
05-06-04 - Although I did eat some low fat poptarts today
04-27-04 - the toe didn't hurt that bad, i guess
04-24-04 - spencer
04-23-04 - weshallsee
04-19-04 - ugh
04-17-04 - she's wracking her brain for my replacement
04-12-04 - i can't believe it
04-11-04 - who the heck knows.
04-04-04 - i don't feel enough for it to happen.
03-27-04 - alex
03-24-04 - 22 and 2 kids!
03-21-04 - So Misunderstood.
03-19-04 - milestone
03-16-04 - cause now I'm sad.
03-14-04 - you give 110%
03-12-04 - i am dumb
03-02-04 - maybe I'm my mother's daughter.
02-24-04 - weird
02-21-04 - just because you're out on a saturday night.
02-18-04 - writer's block
02-12-04 - not like i miss her
02-09-04 - birthday.
02-04-04 - even though we're just friends (deja vu)
01-29-04 - the best kind of compliment.
01-26-04 - john ryan: 1/25/04
01-24-04 - nobody except me and everyone else, maybe
01-18-04 - until my body gives up
01-15-04 - luckily there were no psychotic killers chasing us..
01-11-04 - love for the written word.
01-09-04 - struggle
01-07-04 - ouch
01-06-04 - loveit
01-02-04 - money, even though i wanted totalk about friends
12-29-03 - idon't know what to do
12-28-03 - hopefully nothing happened when i got out.
12-25-03 - such a difference!
12-23-03 - i make no effort to be nice anymore
12-21-03 - i can't belive it's been another year
12-19-03 - looove.
12-15-03 - aaaaaaaaah.
12-11-03 - provocation
12-09-03 - maybe i should stop trying.
2003-12-07 - all i want to do is buy christmas stuff.
2003-12-06 - so there.
2003-12-01 - but blame it on me anyway because i'm a bitch
2003-11-27 - love for my grandma
2003-11-25 - you don't seem to understand
2003-11-21 - ahh dan brown i love you dearly.
2003-11-16 - don't even know why i'm crying.
2003-11-13 - her ignorance is only polite disdain.
2003-11-10 - so much but so little!
2003-11-03 - don't really even remember your name.
2003-11-01 - can't wait
2003-10-30 - down3
2003-10-29 - -
2003-10-27 - you'd better believe it.
2003-10-26 - oct. 31st
2003-10-23 - sure, that's great.
2003-10-22 - hah. yeah.
2003-10-21 - oscar
2003-10-20 - ahhh
2003-10-14 - why is my happiness so dependent on 3 numbers?
2003-10-10 - where where where
2003-10-07 - not somuchanymore
2003-10-05 - -
2003-09-25 - maybe.
2003-09-21 - slow for now.
2003-09-15 - ahhhh!
2003-09-14 - its not always me
2003-09-12 - so sad always
2003-09-11 - wow.
2003-09-09 - it's probably just because I can pay the bills this month
2003-09-07 - pamandfamily
2003-09-05 - how much makeup did i even have on?
2003-09-05 - yeah.
2003-09-03 - fuckingbastard.
2003-09-03 - spare change
2003-09-03 - beautiful.
2003-08-30 - ohwell.
2003-08-30 - it said Spanky.
2003-08-27 - and then they lock it.
2003-08-25 - granparents
2003-08-24 - hahafuckyoutoo
2003-08-18 - can't help it.
2003-08-17 - I'm not saying welcome back
2003-08-17 - better than Cruel Intentions 2, anyway.
2003-08-14 - thats why thecity couldnt stop.
2003-08-12 - sticking around.
2003-08-03 - thecityistemporarilysuspended
2003-07-30 - an impending move.
2003-07-29 - ah.
2003-07-26 - back to normal
2003-07-22 - just give me a few days.
2003-07-22 - never open your letters.
2003-07-21 - yeah.
2003-07-19 - wow.
2003-07-19 - branchville!
2003-07-16 - you too bastard.
2003-07-13 - Money
2003-07-09 - longing to be the nucleus.
2003-07-06 - hey, didnt i just hear him talking about it on the phone just now.
2003-07-05 - cryfromtheinsanity.
2003-06-30 - life is only a game.
2003-06-29 - and just like the movies
2003-06-26 - tension so thick./
2003-06-23 - ouch my head hurts.
2003-06-21 - kbplmd
2003-06-13 - fuck you. Money should grow on trees.
2003-06-11 - ahh. too bad we'd never be friends in real life.
2003-06-09 - i'm not the same anymore either.
2003-06-08 - only this time it was with a girl
2003-06-07 - but thtat was way back then.
2003-06-06 - yippee.
2003-06-01 - make it next weekend, then.
2003-05-31 - what a night
2003-05-29 - Who knew being friends was the best thing since sliced bread.
2003-05-26 - Even my dreams know I need cash!
2003-05-24 - and maybe I owuldn't be too chicken to drag a razor across my wrist.
2003-05-23 - days gone by
2003-05-23 - -
2003-05-21 - no food!
2003-05-20 - Buffy
2003-05-19 - reflection
2003-05-18 - ahhh
2003-05-17 - ugh
2003-05-16 - ouch my heart
2003-05-13 - and it makes me wonder
2003-05-13 - good thing I hung out for awhile
2003-05-11 - phone calls are hard.
2003-05-10 - and you had a car
2003-05-05 - people
2003-05-01 - family is a shitty thing.
2003-04-23 - you spend so much on you!
2003-04-19 - jesus christ
2003-04-19 - and that purchase's name is dakota
2003-04-16 - 5 at a time.
2003-04-15 - $^#@!
2003-04-12 - life
2003-04-12 - guy//dakota
2003-04-07 - and I have a feeling that you're the one who gave me this problem with drugs and drinking.
2003-04-05 - GET BETTER
2003-04-05 - even if we're friends I can still think fuck you when I see her
2003-04-02 - Dakota
2003-03-30 - everyone
2003-03-28 - %#@!^%^#!@ would that one girl just die.
2003-03-26 - they said it's torture.
2003-03-23 - i hate you, the whole family.
2003-03-21 - Why.
2003-03-16 - out.
2003-03-14 - -
2003-03-10 - no talking.
2003-03-08 - -
2003-03-08 - everything
2003-03-08 - don't know.
2003-03-02 - way to make me feel like shit.
2003-03-01 - and i barely know your last name.
2003-02-24 - hey. i used to have friends and enjoy myself. not so much now.
2003-02-18 - a little easier than breathing. I'm fine now.
2003-02-17 - and p.s., even though I said I hated him I really didn't.
2003-02-17 - plus i'm sick
2003-02-12 - oops.
2003-02-11 - his name is brian
2003-02-10 - news
2003-02-09 - diaryanon
2003-02-08 - happy birthday to me.
2003-02-06 - patty
2003-02-03 - (her name starts with a k and we used to be friends, you know.)
2003-02-02 - so I took a break.
2003-01-29 - jason and someone who's name can't be said.
2003-01-28 - those 2 guys.
2003-01-25 - the way it was.
2003-01-23 - Liar like him
2003-01-20 - number.
2003-01-17 - &#*)
2003-01-17 - thank you.
2003-01-16 - that day yesterday.
2003-01-15 - goodnight.
2003-01-15 - ugh.
2003-01-13 - books.
2003-01-08 - make it stop.
2003-01-08